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Trauma hits home as I prepare for my surgery date.

I was sailing along losing weight at a pretty steady pace and was down 22 pounds by June 24th.   June 25th came and my world was turned upside down as my daughter attempted suicide.   I found myself calling 911 and riding in an ambulance on a Sunday night rather than being in my jammies and heading to bed.   The next 24 hours were probably the longest of my life as we waited by our daughter's bedside to make sure she was going to pull through.   Thanks to prayers on her behalf our kind Heavenly Father pulled her through.    Within those 24 hours my hubby and I found out things we didn't know that made us want to vomit.   Things our daughter had been dealing with all alone afraid to talk about things.   There was also great anger toward an older teen who didn't care about what our rules were as parents and he took advantage at every turn.   He was also leaving me direct messages on a social media account trying to manipulate his way into things.   Yes!  There was anger!!!  
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Continuing to change...getting closer to the BIG day!

While I don't have my surgery date yet I know I am getting closer to finding out.  :)   I finally got the call today to set up my psych. evaluation that is required before surgery.   I've never had an evaluation like this one so it should be a new adventure.   It is a two part evaluation.  Both last 2 hours.  The first is a written exam type and the second I meet with a psychologist.  Should be interesting. A couple weeks after my upper GI scope I went in for an upper GI x-ray series where you drink horrible stuff that tastes like carbonated chalk.  I was fine at first but after a while it made me feel sick and I didn't fully recovered for a week.   I have decided I would rather have a scope than the x-ray/drink any day.   I realize I had it easy...some people going through these tests have  medical issues they are facing that are scary and painful.  I remembered that while I was getting through the week after the tests.  I have one amazing friend who has always been a

Moving right along...

Attended my second nutrition class yesterday where I learned more about protein, carbs and fiber.   Also learned more about how to eat after surgery.   I'm getting pretty excited but nervous.    I have been working hard. I'm so thankful for my darling daughter who walks with me everyday.  We live in a beautiful area and have many places we can go to walk. My daughter near the lake by our home.  Great place to walk. This past week I had an upper GI scope done so my doctor could see how big my hiatial hernia is.   Turns out it is very small and not a concern.   The Bypass will fix the issue. The day of the procedure I slept pretty much all day and had a horrible sore throat.  My throat is still sore but doing better.  My doctor directed me to eat soup and shakes that day.  I hadn't had sugar in a while so I was hesitant but I'm glad I got the shakes.    It felt incredibly good as the ice cold yumminess slid down my throat.   It has caused sugar cravings to ret

Where I am in the process and what I have done so far.

After many prayers on February 19, 2017 I decided to move forward to find out if Bariatric Surgery was for me.    I read and read and read some more about how the surgeries work, how people are doing 1 year, 5 years and 10+ years later.    I read medical articles and asked those I know who have had the surgery lots of questions. I also decided to move forward and start one healthy habit at a time. First bad habit to kick was my soda consumption.   Diet Coke was my friend and I knew it was going to be hard.   I love the taste of Coke.  Cherry Coke and Dr.Pepper (almost always in the diet form) were my favorites!    I knew if I wanted to do this to help myself for the rest of my life I better start making some new habits. So on March 4, 2017 I drank my last Diet Coke. My new "treat" to drink is Whyler's sugar free strawberry Lemonade and other flavors.  When I want a sweet drink that is what I use but I only allow myself one in a day and as time has gone on I am not e

How I got here and why I'm choosing bariatric surgery.

This past year I had a doctor who ran a weight loss study I was part of sit down and give me the true 411 on my health and my future.   He said things I wasn't ready to hear.   I have pondered over his words for a long time. You won't be a good mother for those children you say you love. Within your 50's or even your 40's you will have diabetes and your life will be limited. These are just a couple of the sentences he said to me that caused me to panic, stop and think really hard. I've been trying to lose excess weight for over 4 years and I have only lost to then gain even more.   I am only 5'2" and I am carrying an extra 150 pounds.   The weight is literally killing me. My weight was already a problem but on Christmas day 2015 my world was rocked to the core as I went to check on my daughter and found her with deep cuts all over her legs.   Not scratches and not just a few but many deep cuts.   I knew something was wrong but I had no idea!!!!  Str